i guess the other thing is recently i cna remember early on in life like i was always WAYYYYY more attracted to women and stuff and everything but i do remember a couple same sex thoughts but it was never like oh im attracted to a certain guy or what not, and ive always viewed myself as heterosexual. i NEVER had an attraction to another guy or anything of that sort, could that mean something like ive hid it from myself all this time and i was attracted to women forever and now whatever this like happened or what not?