So I saw my family doctor and my OB-GYN this week and they both refuse to prescribe me medication for my Bipolar issues because I am pregnant. I have an appointment with a psychiatrist on March 4th and they want me to wait. I told hem both that I have been having my typical rapid cycling and I am hypo manic Friday- Saturday and depressed and suicidal the rest of the week. They said to go to the ER if I need to. Problem is I live in a really small town where the hospital is terrible, so I would have to drive 1.5 hours to go to the ER. Fine but whatever.

I was feeling really awful yesterday but woke up hypo manic again this morning and there's no ****ing way I'm going to the hospital now. I work Saturday and Sunday at a new job and I don't want to miss for fear of getting fired. My husband is fine with me waiting until Monday but says he will do involuntary commitment if he has too. Is it lame to wait until Monday? I'm sure I'll be feeling terrible again by then as usual. What if they turn me away? Will anyone in this ****ing God awful state prescribe me meds? Just because I'm pregnant I have to wait? Why can't I get help without being in crisis?