I journal. I don't do it with any regularity but writing is a major release for me. Several years ago, when I was hyper religious, I kept a daily prayer journal. I had notebook after notebook filled with prayer, Scriptures, all of my praises and all of my anguish.
When I was better, I had to throw them all out. The pages were filled with conspiracy theories and paranoia that was disguised as prayer. I spent the first hour of my day with the Lord both when I was well and when I discovered that my thoughts were delusional. When I believed those delusional thoughts were normal, I believed that every prayer I prayed was going to come true because I was chosen and because everything I spoke came directly from the Holy Spirit. That was stressful in it's self.
When I journal now, it helps both my pdoc and my t know what is going on in my head and if I have anything concerning going on.
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Every finger in the room is pointing at me
I want to spit in their faces then I get afraid of what that could bring
I got a bowling ball in my stomach I got a desert in my mouth
Figures that my courage would choose to sell out now
Tori Amos ~ Crucify
Dx: Schizoaffective Disorder
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