I'm sorry you are feeling poorly *hugs*

I'm not going to lie, at times being bipolar just plain sucks. It's frustrating. It requires a lot of extra effort and some lifestyle changes. But it's not my whole life. I still work. No one except those closest to me even know about it. In a way, I was kind of relieved by my diagnoses because it explained a lot. It took away a little bit of the guilt I had for certain things I did or certain ways I felt. Somedays I still struggle with acceptance, but at the same time, acceptance allows me to focus on trying to stay well.