Hi everyone im new to this website. I don't know if this is were I should post this but heres my story ... For the past three years I've been struggling with my ED. The past 9 months to a year I have been doing better. I have been able to eat dinners thanks to smoking ( I don't know if that's ok to say on here :/ ) but I was still purging all the food I ate in that night in the morning .... well anyways about three weeks ago I came down with a horrible case of strep throat and got a abscess in my throat so good for me I couldn't purge like I usually would. well now that im cured of my strep I still haven't purged at all Yesterday for the first time in a year I ate my first solid food during the day it was a small thing of yogurt ( Ate maybe like 6 small bites. I shared most of it with my daughter ) but anyways I was so super excited because I was able to keep it down. I was so proud of myself and have been for the three weeks to a month of not purging until today ... today has been a really bad day. I don't know if it is guilt from eating yesterday or what but im very very depressed , angry and having the urge to purge * but I haven't * I just don't know why. Is it just part of getting better ? Like I said in the from the start I don't know if I am posting in the right forum ... I just need some advice Please.