Thanks. I have told him clearly that I would not take lithium even though he keeps raising it. What I did was sorta fib a bit and say I'd be willing to take something else, like a mood stablizer, if he felt there was an issue. That was just to put it off though. If anything I'm the opposite of manic. I'm totally exhausted and sometimes really down, but with the bipolar thing in the air, I don't have a chance of getting anything for possible depression.

It's really frustrating and hard to deal with. We almost did stop. I mean he has seen me cry, which I don't do that easily. He has seen the bruises and pictures too. He has heard parts of the fights. Well, he did hear before his own stuff made him cut back almost all calls and lots of time off. He doesn't even have someone cover him anymore.

I'm hoping that the new doctor will be willing to talk to him. March does seem far, but I do have good medical coverage so can go to others in the clinic if something comes up before then.