You know it is ok to be hospitalized again and not pathetic. It's just part of this illness. I was terrified of hospitals for years, to the point that my pdoc helped me avoid them. Now I average one visit per year (although really it's more some years and less others) and it's ok. I never would have believed that was part of my future but it is and I know now to expect nothing less from bipolar.

I hope you feel better tomorrow too. But if you don't it is ok to get help before that is beyond your control.

All of this you know. I just wish you could feel better.