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Originally Posted by BeyondtheRainbow
I didn't think it wasn't as bad as it seems. I think it probably is. You are dealing with a horrible loss and a horrible disease that magnifies that loss when it doesn't need magnification to be awful.
I also didn't mean that the hospital was the issue. I meant that needing it is not bad and you are in no way pathetic. I don't know how you manage to hold it together so well; you are so strong. If you need a few days for some med changes and a little time to grieve without so much responsibility and then you come out a little better that's not a bad thing. Your son will understand as he grows up and it sounds like he has people who love him if you can't be there.
I'm sorry my post came across as it did; I did not meant to sound critical. I just don't want you to suffer more than you already are.
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I know you're right. I'm not insulted, don't worry! I really appreciate your input. I'm just really trying to make it a whole year without a hospitalization. That would be wonderful. I have t made it that long since all this ******** started in 2012.
I feel more mixed than anything these past few days. I'm usually asleep by now. I know it's only 10:15 and that's not late but I don't feel like I can even get to sleep. Too full of nervous energy. And if it is mixed, that's a problem. I know you know.
Thanks for your support. I sure hope you feel better soon too.