Regarding my work, I have always kind of "come in second." I mean, I know I can handle the job but I watch myself screw up constantly. Comparison is one of my "tricks" I use to self denigrate. For example, I compare myself to my sister who has been very successful in her career as a property manager. I call myself a loser, idiot, whatever as compared to her. the heck do I do that? Why can't I enjoy some of the success my sister has enjoyed? A mystery. Self sabotage comes to mind. Like I'm happy as a damn loser. And the think about it is taht it seems inescapable. At work, I tell myself, "You're just like everyone else here. They are not better than you." But it doesn't work. I still screw up. Sorry, I know this description is kind of vague. But it's not clear to me either...