Wanderlust said,"
Why do people think that they are all knowing? That because they have experienced things that my experiences are exactly the same as theirs? That im just a silly little girl who thinks she's the only one in life with problems. That I have no problems. When one is happy they seem to look down on those who arnt like they are weak.

Reminds me of when I think I am all knowing due to mania. Also I think people think they are all knowing when they don't experience things deeply, and believe emotions are water faucets that can be turned off and on. Also, mentally blind people can be all knowing. And people like me, who have had a range of experiences that seem so vast that when others describe an emotion it feels similar to something in a memory.

At the moment, I have felt so few emotions recently, and feel so clear thinking, I envy your waves.

I heard something once: Everything is relative. Meaning, everything comes from a unique perspective and no other person can ever truly understand. Example: what is the definition of love, sugary, anger- each person looks at life through their unique lense, and no one should tell another how to feel, or what the feeling means or is. I try to remember not to say "don't ____". (don't worry, don't cry, don't whatever) an emotion has a reason and purpose.

I wish I had the opportunity to raise my children now, but they are grown. I am glad I was as unique as I was, because they are individuals instead of feeling blinded by judgement. But still, there are so many things I want to impart to them- but as they are adults now, I stay far back and try to let them be free.

Sorry I got off track, but wanderlust - I look onto your emotions as if they are a shadowy memory of something I once had that made me rich, deep, unique.

We bipolars are lucky we do not fit into a cookie cutter character. But finding our edges by ourselves, no maps or compass- is a windy, blinding adventure.

Edit addition: In my college dorm a guy had a sign hanging on his door, it said: I am the smartest man in the world, because I know I know nothing. I have often thought my dumbest moves have been made when I was confident.