Hi there
I am dreaming a lot about my dad lately. These are beautiful dreams, last night I dreamt that I looked into the sky and there were millions of stars, and my dad was there. Sometimes in my dreams there is a feeling present that I have to suppress when I am awake - my dad and I don't have a relationship and are not in contact anymore. I feel like I lost him many years ago, and he is just a bitter, sarcastic, mean, abusive alcoholic to me now. But I feel like I know who he is deep inside, and this feeling has torn me up for years. I fought for him and I wanted him to be good and healthy, but instead he kept hurting himself and everyone else.
Now in my dreams the love for him is so present, and I feel like I can't put it anywhere else
Just wanted to tell someone