Love and prayers to you! I too have been diagnosed bipolar and I hate it, but, other than a great therapist and pdoc I keep a bp journal. I'm not a journaling kind of person but once I got started it's so easy and the benefits I get are immeasurable! Its blind sided you and it will take time to wrap your head around it. I'm believing a balanced life is just around the corner! Be gentle with yourself and smile even when you don't feel like it, it's very contagious!!!