Yeah wanderlust, I'm afraid my pnurse won't take me seriously unless I tell her all the suicide stuff, and then I'm afraid she will try to hospitalize me if I do. She's not very good. I don't really like her. I think she will just want to raise the Brintellix, which I don't want because it's not doing even anything at all. I just want to switch to something else.

I did get to sleep last night so that was good. But I feel the same this morning. I feel like I'm going to burst out in tears. All I can do is lay here. Eventually I will get up and clean and maybe that will take my mind off of things.



I must be doing something wrong. There must be more I can do. Maybe I will think about that today. Maybe I will make some cookies. I like cooking.