I have suffered from depression for as long as I can remember. I am 25 years old and I have 2 children. I have been on and off medications since I was 15 and so far nothing helps. I was taken out of high school b/c I couldn't deal with it anymore and then the jobs I had in my early 20s didn't last long b/c I just shut down. I'm so angry and irritated all the time no one wants to be around me. I lost all of my friends b/c I never would talk to them on the phone or go out with them. I'm in a so called relationship with a man that wants really nothing to do with our kids, won't support them in any way because I won't put out. I live with family, which I HATE because they criticize everything I do or try to do. I have given up. I have been seeing a T and a Psychiatrist and they have me on a mood stablizer but it still isn't working. I just don't know what to do anymore. I'm always feeling alone and empty. I can't even remember the last time I was happy or smiled. I never have time for me at all. I am always doing something for my kids and family. But when I need help or something they won't help me out. I just don't know how much longer I can handle this depression. I'm so tired of feeling like this, feeling worthless, feeling like my kids would be better off if I weren't around, feeling guilty because I can't give them the life they deserve. I don't even remember the last time I slept more than 2 hours a night. I'm tired of being angry and pushing people away. I dunno, thanks for letting me rant a little.

Sabrina