but i'm not. the fear of abandonment hasn't been this strong in months. i will never heal. i'm untreatable. i have been shaking with fear and nervousness for the past 2 hours. what if my family or boyfriend leaves me ?
i know i couldn't continue living
i always play horrible scenes in my head
i don't want people to abandon me
i can't talk to anyone about it. my next psychotherapist appointment is in 2 weeks
i'm so scared i can't stop crying. i took a nordaz to calm myself
what do i do ?