Is it just me?
During the week I look forward to the weekend. I think I will bound out of bed, have coffee with a friend, clean up a little bit, and read a book. I find I cannot do these things. I think going to work all week chews up energy and my batteries have to go into the recharger on the weekends.
Today, I barely made it to the shower. I cancelled dinner plans with my friend, and can't pay attention to the book I planned to read. Funny thing is, I don't feel depressed or tired.
I think this is the curse of being bipolar. Having to work so hard to get through each day all the while checking in with myself to make sure I am doing ok. The thing is, I am stable right now and I find I still have to hold watch over myself just in case there is a hole in front of me ready to swallow me up.
So my question is, are weekends the worst for anyone else? If so, why is it the case?
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Bipolar: Lamictal, and Abilify. Klonopin, Ritalin and Xanax PRN.
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