I can email her, but she won't read her email until Tuesay. I think I'll wait till next session and if I chicken out again, then I'll try an email.

When my T told me she was p, she told me what options I had with therapy and that I should think about it. She also mentioned that I could already have some sessions with the new T while she's still at work. So that's an option. I'm still not sure what I want. I think I mentioned that the week after she told me. And she said that I don't need to know it right now and that I've still got over two months to think about it. But I would like to know it as soon as possible. Now I'm in so much stress and anxiety about what I'm going to have to do.

At the place she works there are about 7 other T's. Their photo and bio are one the website. I've looked at it and I don't see someone who I would like to see. I've also looked at other T's who are near my city, but the same, no T really speaks to me. I'm just afraid to make to wrong choice. I've had bad T's before my current T. And I'm so scared to get another T who doesn't understand me and doesn't know what she/he does. That's why I went back to this T when I needed therapy again. I've thought about going to a new T, because I felt ashamed. But I chose to go back to this T, because she has been the only T I've see who understood me and who knew how to help me and had good suggestions. And now she's leaving me while I still need help. Maybe it would have been better if I hadn't went back to her a year ago. I don't know if I would be better off then, but it would have save me a lot of other worries.