I was in tears a couple nights ago because of my severe preoccupation with my belongings. I always want to know what I own, what the quality of the object is, how many multiples I might have, where it's located, whether I need to keep it or toss it, etc etc. I'm planning a move but it's a couple months away. So now I am just waiting for the day to come that I can pack it and go. Doing just a little bit now puts me off balance (in a different sense of balance than what you mentioned) But I can't just do nothing. Leaving it as is leaves me uncomfortable because I know someday it wont be here anymore so I don't want it here now. I have to leave some cherished furniture items behind too, It's far to expensive to travel with.

I would say on average, my possessions would turn up in my thoughts every hour or so. Sometimes I would do something to deal with things, clean or reorganize and that would take many hours. But now, for the past couple of weeks, I think about it all the time, every few minutes I worry about some thing I own or something I need to own. I can't stop thinking about how I'm going to pack it all, what sort of organizational system I'm going to use. My room is such a mess and that mess also makes me feel so sick but I don't have any clue right now what to do with it all. I don't know if I have too much or too little. I don't know if I have the right things. Nothing feels right. I can't put any of it into perspective. I'm in some kind of limbo.