Khione, anxiety can do a number on you; been there, done that. Try to call for another counselor or therapist and gets meds asap. You need them to fend off the anxiety. If you are indoors try research more on the topics you want in college and what that would require of you to take. Check into the particulars of school and make a plan for it. In the meantime it sounds like your mom is working besides caring for an elderly parent too. That is difficult and then they come home and crash. That is draining and exhausting for the caretaker. they often need to unwind and take it out at times on family members. Just take this time to get a good counselor and your meds. Once you do that you will be able to be more focused and ready for this September. tc