Wire Twister, tears is nothing but poison leaking from the heart, in other words getting better. If you need to cry then let yourself. We were never meant to be non feeling machines. And anger is also a way to hide emotional pain. Sounds like you are moving beyond that and you are letting go of the pain. No you have not lost it, you are finally letting the damn of walled emotions go and it will let up and you will heal. Give yourself the time you need to be kind to yourself. tc