Haha I don't think your rambling at all.

I've never been solely on lithium monotherapy. I've taken both desvenlafaxine (pristiq) & fluoxetine monotherapy, both caused ?hypomania, mostly dysphoric but also euphoric with fluoxetine. I've taken lithium with both mentioned ADs but became increasingly blunted.

I feel both better & worse for stopping them all (with the exception of pristiq which just didn't agree with me in the slightest & im glad to be rid of it)