So I am a part in a DID system, a teenager. Last session I told T I love her. She doesn't say anything, but wonders if it made me feel better having said it. It was a big build up to have it finally blurted out. After I went inside so Host could get home only to come back out and write a hate you email to T. Then hours later to write I am sorry, please don't be mad. I see I am a bit borderline. Anyway, she says she cares, and that's it. I am sure she knows best, but I am wondering what is it like to have your feelings of love validated by your T? Has it made your relationship better or is it uncomfortable? Host doesn't love T. And T told me it's uncomfortable for host and that I need to beanie to tolerate my feelings and not influence host or to go where parts go so she can work with host and other parts. I think if T would say it to me it would help me yet feel also that I would certainly attach to it. It would increase my desire to be around her all the time. So I guess that isn't normal right?
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