I found a lot of peace, comfort, and healing in these three words, I love you," from my therapist. It's over two years post termination, and those words still resonate with me in good and bad times. I also, let her know I hated her at times. I learned from her, that holding both love and hate in the same hand did not negate my love for her. This understanding came about after my teenager was behaving horridly, towards me specifically. I hate you, was screaming to get from my heart to my mouth, not necessarily to my son, but in the therapy room. Thinking back I wished I could have said it to my kid, but that's not me. Through all these thoughts I believed I was the worst mother in the world. My belief is, both love and hate can exist in the same person. The adult, functioning me, cares about my ex therapist, but it's the little kid that loves her, and uses the memories as needed. I hope the above makes sense.

There is nothing wrong with attaching to it. It may increase your need/want to be around her...or it could start to satisfy you enough to trust her and the process more to help you heal. IMHO.