Thank you Kimberly.
I hope to be able to squash all my crazy thoughts until Monday. I already called my doctor about my meds and quickly added in something about horrible news that she needs to remind me about on Monday. Knowing me I will black it out until just after my appointment.

I have techniques to deal with stuff like this, well not quite like this. I have learned not to immediately react. I now do my best to think before I act.