Hi Tryingtobegood. I've been the same since childhood...sneaking bites (big bites) of garbage food into my mouth when no one was looking...sneaking food into my room...wanting the biggest portion of whatever was being served. I've been fighting it my whole life. I find when I'm feeling good about myself and keeping busy I don't act this way. When I'm bored or down on myself (maybe it's loneliness) I get out of control. I've been trying to find some hobbies with other people to keep me engaged so I don't overeat, but I don't commit. I just think about it and don't do it. I have days when I'm better and days when I'm worse. I'm currently living alone and my trigger is going home in the evening after work with no one and nothing to stop me. I sit in front of the TV and just eat. Well, one day at a time. Start with a plan. Make a call. Make an appointment. Anything... And then act on it. I have faith in myself that I'll get there and I try not to get too down on myself when I slip backwards, but I do have a lot of shame in how I've let myself get so out of shape. I'm need to turn that shame into action!