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Originally Posted by miss_rainy
Something's bothering me; Recently, I've been reverting back to a little kid. I see myself as kid and think like a kid. This is really embarrassing but I'm starting to play with dolls. This helps especially to cope when something bad is happening. I
Well, just to give you some background, I always felt different since I was a little kid. I never really had a real personality and I always take pieces from other people's personalities and use them. This is how I cope with emotions, communicate with people and "be normal". My personality never was stable, I would change about four times a day and when I went back to my "real" self it was flat with no distinct features, nervous and I was unable to express myself. Never mind the fact that I felt that I would mindlessly do anything someone said or suggested. Couldn't help and still continues today.
Now, especially as my mind gets worse after being beating and battered, I'm having different personalities that interrupt as I'm talking and you can hear hem by the pitch change and how the subject/opinion changes. Someone can even call on them and they will come out and talk. Also, because of my schizophrenic mental problems, I can even hear them talk in my head. I hear them and feel all the time and it makes my mind feel cloudy making it hard to stay the same. They come out with triggers and in certain situations.
Does anybody know what this is? I tried asking somebody but nobody will answer or take me seriously. Even my therapist doesn't even address it and it's nagging at me. Feedback is defiantly welcome.
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there are many different normal medical and mental problems associated with when a person feels like they are reverting to childhood....
example Alzheimer disease, cancers, stress, lack of sleep, .....just about anything can cause a person to feel like a child.
we even have a therapy that teaches being the child, getting in touch with the child side of a person \you once were, acting schools also promote people acting like a child at times. parenting classes also use regression techniques to help parents understand what its like to be a child.
we can not make a diagnosis of what may be happening with in you so my suggestion is if this continues to bother you talk with your treatment providers. if you are here in the USA you can ask for diagnostic evaluations to find out what your mental disorders, physical health and learning problems are, by undergoing these tests you will find out if this reverting to childhood for you is normal, medical or mental problem in you.
something in your post jumped out at me...your statement that you dont really have a real personality.... with DID and OSDD a person knows they have a personality... they know things like when they feel numb, spaced out, they know when they hear voices, they know whether their non dissociated self is kind, quiet, considerate, trustworthy, funny, happy, sad, lacking emotions.. these things are all things that here in america is a personality for even non mental disordered people...
my suggestion is read your past posts. i bet you will find many descriptive words about what your personality is like...
for example in one post you invited others to talk with you thats called being compassionate and considerate and helpfut of others. thats your personality in the normal sense of the word.
another example you use the phrase you have a sense of what another poster was going through. thats being intuitive and that describes your personality in the normal sense of the word.
when I am at a loss for what my personality is like I come on here and read my past posts. they contain words that describe what my personality is like.
now in the DID\OSDD sense of the word personality there is a huge difference. its not about reverting to childhood. you can read in my link at the bottom of my post what an alternate personality is but in general dissociative type alters have their own way of being, their own jobs purposes, reasons for being that affects every aspect of a persons life.
something else that jumped out at me in your post....you described your self as....
it was flat with no distinct features, nervous and I was unable to express myself. Never mind the fact that I felt that I would mindlessly do anything someone said or suggested.
in ....my location.... this isnt called dissociation this is called catatonic... it happens with medications that are not the right dosage, and mental disorders like schizophrenia.
another suggestion if you are on medications check with your treatment providers maybe the solution is just a change in dosage or kind of meds you are on.
maybe even print off your post and give it to your treatment providers so that they can see you want to address this issue. there may be a reason why they did not diagnose this reverting to childhood as being an alternate personality...such as it may not fit the new diagnostics for being a dissociative type. if so they can tell you what this reverting to childhood is for you.