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Originally Posted by Fizzyo
I always felt different from the other kids. They seemed to see me as a freak and didn't take kindly to my existence.
At least part of me now knows it's not bad to be different and it gives me ways of thinking which complement others when problem solving.
I'm sorry you feel yourself to be ugly. That probably is untrue, I haven't seen you but I don't know any really ugly people.
A friend of mine believes that when a child suffers trauma, they don't develop emotionally past that age. I don't know. Maybe a part of you stays that age. I find certain triggers leave me feeling like a bewildered young child, but also I have matured in many ways too. I think we are in touch with our emotional selves as different ages, depending on the context.
Does that make any sense? It's not anything you would see in a text book, but it's what seems to happen to me.
Best wishes  |
Yes maybe. I just resent the influence things like that have over me because I don't judge other people in the same way. I feel like other people's actions have made me like this. It makes me feel like a child - emotionally stunted and looked down upon - and I should have matured beyond that by now. I don't like it in me because I hate vanity but I'd love to just feel okay and not observed. Just to fit in. I barely feel human.