I was doing Internal Family Systems therapy with my last therapist (I moved to a different state) it was grueling and opened up some stuff that has made me feel more vulnerable but was also necessary. I really wanted to continue with it but the closest therapists that practice it are about an hour a way. I can't justify doing that for therapy.

This therapist also does DBT and if the EMDR is too much or doesn't feel right I'm going to ask to try that.

I actually had a weird breakthrough yesterday on my own where I was sleepy and kind of..not altered but more open to the things I was thinking (and on cold medicine) so I just started writing things down. I'm going to copy them into a notebook and show them to my therapist so she can see what is going on in my head.

Mostly I'm realizing how completely detached I feel most of the time. From myself, from the world.