Had an episode of dsyphoria and emptiness today, can't remember how I felt yesterday, but I am sure it was different than today just as today will be different from tomorrow. My mood cycles so many times so quickly, all over the map from BPD. I was at my niece's bday party, and coming home I sat in the backseat of the car on the ride home and cried, I'm glad it was dark by then so no one noticed.