Thank you for taking the time and giving me some advice.I am on the lookout for someone here in China,spoke to the psychiatrist who supplies my meds and he said that he will have a look out for psychologist who speaks good english,otherwise the two of us can start so long.Thats a good sign,showing me that he is willing to help.I think that there are quite a few things wrong with me,from physical abuse to child abuse to emotional abuse to rape to battered wife syndrome to drug dependency to prostitution to postnatal depression,abandonment to overcoming to relapsing to depression to suicide attempt to anti depressants to lack of interest to mental instability and irritability ,anger and frustration,back to anti depressants and still struggling forward.So when I say confused,I really mean it...