No Danialla, you did not come on too strong.

Our minds are interesting things....we can "know" something to be true while at the same time the anger and pain just override it. Oh and let's don't leave out the little gem "guilt".

We have been down this long road before...and it took us years, literally, to find our way. Having survived his loss before...I know I can do it again...but I'm older now, and tireder now and frankly less interested now.

I could not have asked for a more wonderful son...he was the light of my life as I'm sure his new grandson will be for someon's' life.

When he killed himself and I literally was unable to function, his sisters asked me.."Aren't we enough reason to live? Did you love him more?" No, of course I didn't love him more...the difference is, I buried him.

Thank you for your response...I am truly trying to get "up", the floor is uncomfortable.