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Originally Posted by dexter
Thanks basicgoodness. I already take a lot of sick days for other medical issues. It is hard for me to justify there, almost as if I'm staying home for no reason. That's not exactly true, because I do know this is an illness that is out of my control, it's more a case of, right now I'm feeling bad every day, so why can I go in some days and not others, it feels very arbitrary, and of more concern, if it is OK to stay home why don't I just stay home every day.
Ten years ago I was unable to go to work for a whole year, I lost my job, my car was repossessed, I almost lost my home. And yet staying home from work, even through all of those stressors, was the easiest and most comfortable thing that I ever did. Coming home today was easy. I don't like that it is so easy.
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Please, Dexter, please consider getting some antidpressants from your GP. Immediately. Just as an interim measure until things stabilize. I completely understand your not wanting to based on the side effects, but you are basically in a state right now that puts your livelihood in major jeopardy.
You aren't marrying the antidepressants, for heaven's sake - you'd just be using them to get over a major hump!! You can break up them when the time is right. View them merely as a life preserver - drowning people don't hang onto their life preservers forever . . . nor do they care what form their preserver comes in . . . a real one, one tossed out by the N. Koreans, a piece of drifting wood, a dead whale (swear this is true!), or whatever. You are drowning. Do what you need to do! Now!
