Shakespear......having gone through a trauma & then moved & started going to a completely NEW church while also going to some wonderful DBT therapy with a wonderful psychologist.

I am finally integrating the past with present behavior & thoughts....my psychologist says that integration is a key part to healing from not only damage that caused PTSD, but also from dysfunctional situations we may have lived with for many years that cause a whole set of other problems in relating with other people.

What I found in my new church though it's rather small is that they were all filled with love, but I was the one having problems not keeping my protective walls up. It was a slow process, but just in the course of being with the people there were openings that presented themselves in order to explain some of what I had gone through from the trauma to the dysfunction. I didn't dump it all on them at one time, but it was a slow process as I did with many friends in the horse community here that I am a very active part of. Topics would just come up in conversation & I would end up contributing with a little bit about the personal experiences I've gone through. It's better than dumping everything on them all at one time which they can NEVER comprehend in the first place....but little bits here & there & with time, they not only understand what you have gone through but it helps with the healing & growing also.....it's a long process but worth it in the end.