(((hugs))) I have been traumatized by many doctors over the last 10.5 years and I truly do understand how you feel. I know that it is considered taboo for some reason in society to even question the motives or competence of a doctor but I don't adhere to taboos and I speak out anyway. I started doing the same, leaving detailed reviews of each doctor traumatized me. I have started recording every single doctors appointment because I do not trust any doctor at this point, I have been lied to, deceived, screwed, too many times that the trust will never be restored.

Canada's laws here allow one party consent, so as long as I am in the room with the video/audio recording, I do not need the consent of the other party. This way I have a record of every lie they tell, every screw up they make for which I can use in any dispute with the Ontario College of Physicians. Doctors are largely accountable to no one. This notion that they are all in their line of work for altruistic reasons is a total load of bull crap.

Sometimes I will post about my experiences with them online or share them with therapists or other healthcare workers. Sometimes I just feel like unleashing my anger on a punching bag which works well. I am currently in a group therapy for emotion regulation to try and learn to control the anger that has been caused from all the hell and trauma that doctors have put me through. Expressing yourself to volunteer listeners online like 7cupsoftea helps too so that you don't leave all that anger bottled up inside you. But I know what you mean. Everytime I hear or see the phrase "talk to your doctor" or "trust your doctor" my blood boils as well.