Received a call from my pnurse's office - apparently they did switch me to the other pnurse. Without telling me. Thankfully my original pnurse is going to still see me tomorrow because I'm having such a hard time but that's really annoying. At least let me know you're switching me. And now I'm worried she's not going to do anything because she's now not my pnurse. Wtf.

I don't know what I'll do if she doesn't help me. I might have to go inpatient. I can't handle this much longer. I really saw myself driving off the road today. Just wrenching my wheel to the left and flipping my car. But I thought it might flip into oncoming traffic and I'm not trying to hurt anyone else.

I just need to see an end in sight.