I'm sorry they changed your pnurse like that. It seems like they should have a policy against doing exactly what they did because the whole point is for you to feel comfortable with the person treating you. I hope that she listens, helps, and possibly even finds a way to maintain consistency for you for a while.

I'm glad you are considering IOP/IP. I know you don't want to but when you are saying you don't want to do anything that could hurt others, leaving would do that too. Getting things fixed up psychiatrically (my new word) would be the best thing you can do for yourself and your son. I know accepting that has been really hard and I hope that a good solution that you are comfortable with is offered.

Thinking about you