today i went out for the first time since my birthday (november 7th) almost 3 mo. ago. i had to go with my parents to the social security office, and then to the medicaid office to sign papers and whatnot. it exhausted me. i'm not even showering tonight because i am so physically and mentally tired. good news, the inspection is not until thursday, when i thought it was tomorrow. so now i have 2 'extra' days to finish cleaning. i really needed those days because i'm not yet done. if the inspection were tomorrow i'd have to finish cleaning tonight regardless of how tired i am. what irks me about it, though, is that my mom found out it was on thursday and neglected to tell me until today. so all this time i thought it was tomorrow and getting my anxiety up for no reason.

so... i've resolved to make a list of all i still have to do, and begin crossing it off tomorrow. it's going to storm tomorrow, so it'll be a good day to work inside. on thursday i'll get dressed and walk somewhere around the time the inspector lady is to show up. it's not that i don't like her, it's just that having a stranger look around in your room with you just sitting there is kinda awkward. my mom will be there though, so it's okay.