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Old Feb 01, 2016, 08:48 PM
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Originally Posted by Susan27 View Post
My major defense mechanism from childhood was to dissociate

It affected my development to the point that I didn't become conscious until it broke through like s tear one night in July when I was 23 and had moved far away from home and what was familiar and defined me

Now I'm 48 and have these horrible flare ups where I can acutely feel severe fragmentation but I do not think it rises to the level of DID...I think it is right below that particular diagnosis

It's horribly painful in many ways mostly in the forefront of my brain/head and inside where I feel no solid sense of self and I get flooded with secondary terror

Does anyone else have a dissociative disorder like this but without alters (not that I know of anyway although I certainly feel state changes and have no continual sense of self from then to know )

I'm so scared and just want to know if anyone else can get this splintered/shattered/fragmented inside and what helps make it calm down

Susan
when this happened to me my treatment providers called it anxiety. their reasoning for calling it anxiety was because dissociation isnt a painful disorder in my location. its a reaction to a trigger here where I am, and the symptoms in my location is numbness, spacing out, and a numb just observing type of disconnection with the physical body.

what helped me was anti anxiety medication.

suggestion since a person can have dissociation along with anxiety disorders maybe contact your treatment providers. maybe adding a medication will help with the painful side of your dissociative problems.