Something I did with my therapist (actually we've done it a number of times) is we've made relaxation recordings (on a digital recorder) that work for me. Listening to another person do a guided relaxation usually doesn't work for me. I think it is a trust thing and I don't know why I'd ever trust a voice on Youtube but I don't feel safe relaxing with a stranger talking to me. There's years of paranoia involved. So after I once went in on the verge of hysteria and he did one with me and it WORKED I asked him to record one. Over 10 years we've recorded others as I moved from tape player to digital recorder and sometimes to include certain circumstances (I think the current one was taped before my ankle surgery and excludes the legs).

I am very attached to my therapist and find him comforting but I also know that he'll be comforting for so long and then he'll start pushing me to change something. So I think 1-2 visits per week is just enough. I have though in the past known that I just do better with talking to him and worked it out to call him while IP so I'm maybe not as tough as I talk .