Onward I don't currently have a GP, for several years now I've only been seeing specialists for my specific health conditions.

In any case, my focus has been on trying to get back into therapy. If a therapist convinces me to try anti-depressants I will keep an open mind but I do not want that to be my first course of action. It takes weeks for a medication to have any help and last time it took me more than a year to get off of them safely all the while dealing with the side effects and I do not want to start that cycle without first trying therapy.

Finding a therapist has been a challenge... I think that finding a doctor on my insurance that will give me antidepressants will be just as large a challenge (I'm also currently urgently in need of a new rheumatologist) so finding a therapist and then finding a rheumatologist are where I am focusing my limited energy right now.