March 10th will be 1 year since ex-T abandoned me. I feel the need to do something. I want to send ex-T something. I know I'm not going to get a response. I mean, the grievance I filed withthe board of psychology still hasn't been decided.

I talked to T about this. She isn't against it. I could send ex-T pictures of kittens or a scream mask, but that would be revengeful. I could even send it to her home, but she would feel violated. What I originally wanted to do was send her a dead rose symbolizing pain, betrayal, lost love. But my T doesn't think ex-T will understand the symbolism.

So we agreed on one of two things:
1. A poem that expresses my pain
2. One sentence: "After 1 year, I am still hurting and grieving."

I just feel it inside me that I have to do this. I need to do this. I have remained silent for one year. I deserve this.