Wow. I didn't really realize it until I finished reading your post, in tears. Yeah, this is exactly how I've felt, really often. I guess in my case it might really be true because I was diagnosed with a possible autism spectrum disorder. But I've always wondered, so bitterly, what was so wrong with me that people never wanted to be my friend, let alone anything like a girlfriend. There was something about me that was clear as day to everyone else but I could never see it.

My own parents are STILL so confident that I'll find the "right girl" and get married and I just want to scream at them in rage for their stupidity because I'm 31-year-old kissless virgin for ****'s sake! What woman is going to want a broken piece of **** like me?!

It truly is such a hopeless state of affairs. Nobody cares unless you're attractive or dying.