I am slipping back into the abyss... not happy about it. I am starting to drink a glass of wine each night to help me sleep. I know this isn't smart, but I rationalize by saying to myself that it's just one glass.
I'm still just feeling numb inside. I just feel nothing. just long to sleep for at least 9 hours at a stretch. I am avoiding people as much as possible and trying to stay focused while at work, but it's hard.
I am still waiting for my 12 step program to start , but meanwhile i'm tired of living in this limbo hell.