I think you misunderstand. I do not expect for ex-T to respond. I 100% know she's not. There is no false hope. There is no hope.

And I wouldn't send it to her house. I'd send it to her office.

I just don't feel like writing something and the burning it is enough for me. I have sat in silence for 10.5 months thus far. I have respected her wishes. Why? Why did I have to? I didn't. I love her, that's why. I deserve a pass. Just once a year until I no longer feel the need. Why can't I tell her I still hurt? I want her to know. She will know.