I can totally relate to your post. I was only recently diagnosed with BP. I had always been diagnosed as depressed or anxious. I have OCD symptoms as well. Most of mine are intrusive thoughts, but I do have a few rituals as well. My problems started with binge drinking (one night only each time...but holy ****!). As you, I had a great career that lended itself to hypomania. I was in marketing for 20+ years. The **** started hitting the fan about 8 years ago. I would have these manic episodes (didn't know what they were at the time) and I would end up drunk off my *** and putting my family through the ringer. It's been a long road and I'm actually in the midst of dealing with the most recent bad manic episode that included drinking (last summer). My husband has been a godsend. Believe me, he has every right to have left me and taken our son over the years. Many a time he was going to call it quits. Last summer, he drew the line in the sand. I had to get help or he was gone. I finally got diagnosed with his and my son's help (they were able to describe what they see and experience with me during my episodes). I've always had the wrong diagnosis because it was just me going in and telling a pdoc what I thought was going on and these episodes only happened 3-4 times a year. I'm also seeing a counselor and working on my sobriety. I've been sober since last summer. As mentioned, I have major fallout from that situation, and the only way I'm getting through it is with the help of my husband and son. My husband has forgiven me because I chose to get help and put all my energy into getting better. As you, I take full responsibility for all the things I have done that nearly destroyed my family.