One thing my new T. recently said to me was I stayed with ex-T. a long time because the relationship was familiar enough that I wouldn't leave. Ex-T. was giving me just enough yet was so similar to my mom.

I truly believe you won't get past it until you talk and talk to T1 about the issue. I don't think about therapy near as much, and when I do, it's in a healthy way trying to work on what I want to change.

I wonder if you won't quit until you finally get the full acceptance you've been waiting for and feel you used to get. I recently asked a friend why I keep thinking of my ex-T. and she said you're still hoping she will accept you and connect with you. I now realize my entire relationship was about fear of rejection due to the small ways my ex-T rejected me frequently. I was never going to get better with her and I now see it.

Maybe you are also fearful that she will reject you again - does that affect your therapy?