I'm not really sure if I have DID, but most tests that I've been taking tell me that either I have GAD or DID.

It really started 5 years ago.
I was in my second sem of first year highschool, almost done with the term. In the middle of my project making, I had this mind swirl. It was like the world was spinning. Not exaggeratedly so. Just seemed like that to me. After several minutes, my view on the world began to feel unreal. Like, I was just watching a movie. It didn't really do anything bad, so I thought maybe this was some sort of hidden phase people want teens to discover by themselves or something. So I didn't say anything.
During my second year, my mood swings fluctuated wildly.
Third year: I began to obsess myself with books and had another world running. It wasn't that severe either. Or maybe that's just me. Anyway, I also got depressed that time. I also often have suicidal thoughts, but not to the point of attempting it. I always manage to drag it out till I calm myself down. Since I'm also gullible.
Fourth year... My mood swings got really wild, mostly due to an unhealthy relationship I had. I can't remember things much, despite having vivid childhood memories. There are times when I just stare at nothing in particular, for long periods of time.
But I still graduated with flying colors.
I thought college would be easy. But whatever condition I have suddenly began acting up much more severely than before. I feel like the world is not teally even there before. I feel dead, like I'm in purgatory. I can't see my future anymore. There are times when I enjoy school, but most of the time I just don't wanna go anymore. When I do go despite the condition, I can't understand anything despite my efforts. I really want to make my parents proud but I can focus very long on my subjects, much more so since I'm taking an engineering course. I don't know if I would end up crippled by it. I'm really frightened but I believe that I can face it properly. But I'm not sure about my grandma. She has been raised really strictly, and I think most of my fears come from her. I can't go to my mom, because she 's having her own problems now. I don't even know who my father is. If only I were 18 I feel like I could live by myself. I don't know what to do anymore.