(((((((((Ariah)))))))))

Hey dont be so hard on yourself. Depression is tough and even with meds the sadness can still seep in.

One thing I will say is do you really know who you are? I mean depression can so cloud your mind with all those chemicals inside being imbalanced that we can loose contact with who we are.

We are allowed to be happy and at times sad but if either become over the top then it can be a worry.

Also you say the med change was recent, well it will take time for your boy to get used to the medication and so it will be helping you in someways but your depression will still be there so you will have your doubts. Give your self time.

As to seeing your family, well that can be tough and if you are feeling mixed up like you seem to be all the tougher, but maybe it will be good to see them.