Dear T,

Of course it's "fine" that you have to cancel because you are sick. "Take care of yourself" is my way of saying someone should take care of themselves because I'm two inches from the end of my rope and the only thing I want to take care of is cutting my losses. I really needed to come in and now you're scheduled three weeks out and I don't know if I'll make it that long. Too scared of crisis centers or emergency rooms. If I can't hold life together I want none of it at all. See you in three weeks...hopefully.