I saw my t today. I asked her about the thing I needed to process with her which I will just say was cleansing my house of darkness through a ritual. It sounded like a fine way to cleanse my home of the darkness that seems to linger in my home and around me. However, my t didn't think it strange at all. She told me that if I was ever influenced by demons I no longer am since I am a christian and she gave me an alternative to this ritual of going through every room and speaking scriptures out loud and also posting scripture in every room of my house.

Other than that, I had a pretty desperate and sad appointment. I asked her at the end if she would be sad if something happened to me and she said she would be devastated as well as everyone in my life. She made it clear that I was not to have access to my meds. She told me to tell my parents to keep track if my husband would not do it. She asked me several times if I needed to be hospitalized and I said no. She made me say out loud that I would not harm myself. I'm just having a hard time right now.